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Joel Osteen has given me some encouragement during dark days.  I think telling everyone that it was part of God’s plan their life sucked for a while is not fair.  God’s people can withstand hardships and persecutions.  Though I think that is more attributable to man’s sinful nature than God’s plan.  God’s plan was for me to be beaten and thrown in a cage?  Reconciling that with a God that loves us seems a bit difficult.  If we were all treating each other as we wish to be treated would we have wars, and murder, and theft?  

God already sent his son to pay the price.  All so we can continue to have these hardships and problems?  Christ payed the price and there is still evil in the world.  There is wisdom in choosing your battles and marching on past obstacles.  There is also times where action is needed.  Figuring out those times is difficult and why we need God’s help.

God made the earth.  I don’t think it was a part of his plan for that seagull to crap on your head.  Scams are part of the system, ideally not part of God’s plan.  God can help us learn from some hard experiences.  Doesn’t mean that was what he wanted in the first place.

This isn’t to say I think Joel Osteen’s heart is in the wrong place or I don’t appreciate many of his sermons.  Probably be a great friend to have in my life.  I just know we all make mistakes and sometimes get a bad hand, and I don’t want to think that a loving God designed me for that.  

Maybe better to think God will turn the hardships in life to something good.  Just don’t want to say it was right for it to happen in the first place.  Sometimes we miss big pitches for many reasons.  We missed it, we’re sorry and make the best of it from here.  Better to blame and point fingers?  That would be like knocking out the supports of the house we live under.  Another good reason not to let life get bad enough for anyone.  Though sometimes we all miss that one.  We missed it, we’re sorry and how do we make it better from here?

I like China.  I want their people to feel loved and respected.  The memorial lights were beautiful yet they seemed closer to Oriental than to USA tradition.  Might have been better to have more lights that represent the diversity of all nations.  I want us to represent peace yet not bow in submission to any nation.  A nod as a sign of respect I like and can see the benefit over handshakes.  Kneeling or bowing to other nations seems to have more connotations.

A lot of people trying to do something nice I appreciate.  Just with everything else going on this seemed a bit strange. Further it might have an opposite effect of saying these deaths are the responsibility of China. I don’t think it is fair to blame a virus on one nation. In a hurricane we can support each other or point fingers. Support is my choice though I know I fall short at times.

100 years from now the oppression of both The United States and China will be more visible. The advances in technology if used properly will help us make both systems better for all people. The advanced civilizations will look back at all of us and will see what we got wrong and what we got right. I would like those future generations to be able to be proud that we turned the tide against oppression and mercilessness. We found a way to love and care for all people in society. My guess is there are somethings I got right, somethings I got wrong, and somethings I couldn’t for see. I would like to say we made great advances in technology to help make each other’s lives better. My current impression is there is a lot out there currently designed to make us miserable. We can do better for future generations. A phone should be a tool for support and to keep people connected. Not to run people off cliffs.

Some philosophers talked about how if everyone did something it would help show the problem in the morality of the action.  What happens if everyone lies, if everyone steals etc.  Some people seem to be in the business of making my life this way.  For every mistake I have made they surround me with similar.  Problem with this?  Prevents me from helping others in need.  

Justice can be unmerciful.  It can be unmerciful to the wrong people.  It seems like those executing it on my life don’t care about the others in my life.  Not looking for perfection.  The level of this is ridiculous.  Scamming the scammer doesn’t make the scammer scam less.  Or it might trade the scam for something worse.  Better to look at the motivations of the person in the first place.  Possibly help show them a better path to pursue their happiness.  No discipline bad.  Too much discipline bad.  The wrong kind of discipline bad. Can a system that executes a man really claim to love that man? Someone created by God we just throw in the gutter? Self defense and protection is different. Tough decisions to defuse a situation are sometimes necessary. When we have a guy locked in a cage it is not protection.

Don’t throw this on the President or any one man. I don’t want a country that alternates between leaving the other side under the bus. We need to get away from such strong words as people being cult followers, nazis, bigots etc. Demonizing each other can destabilize our system. The system has been unfair and there have been real injustices as well. If we destroy the system those injustices could be furthered. People teaching a CEO a lesson might make him miss something big. Better to help work together to help solve the injustices.

I don’t want shit swept under the rug. The reality is also not always so black and white.

Real conversation is hard. I value it though because it can save many.

Lots of narratives being pushed these days and difficult to know which one to believe.  Our intel agencies appear to be under funded.  The corporate marketplace is getting more and more difficult.

People need work and healthcare.  Labels detract from both.  If we fail to fight oppression we will become oppressed.  I prefer non violent routes.  If the oppressed become the oppressors we end up with a new version of the same problem.  Seems to be the same cycle through much of the world and history.  People get pushed too far.  They stop forgiving.  When they stop forgiving they stop working with each other.  Chaos ensues.  People that lose wives and dream jobs end up with more time on their hands.  Not always great for society as a whole.  Some roll better with the punches than others.

I wish I had a historian friend.  Someone who could show me the precursors to a good balanced society.  Even well meaning people can’t always understand the cause and effect.  I am trying to.  Hopefully others lives are better than mine right now.  Democracy while beautiful can be a bit fragile without great protections in place.  The power of technology and corporations and media all together seem like they might have more power than the government meant to protect them.  That seems like it could make the situation much more volatile.  Just saying things are volatile might make the situation more volatile.  

Being left in silence makes it more difficult to know what can be said and what shouldn’t be.  If we say the stock market has better days ahead it might make the stocks better.  If we say gloom and doom it might add to more difficult times.  Part of the problem with predictive analysis built into supercomputers.  Words have greater consequences.  Those who say nothing and those who say everything can both add value to the system and can both detract.  Not always clear how the words will effect the system.  I would like to think that time and practice can make for better decisions. Not always.  I try to believe the best and leave the rest in God’s hands.

Truth and a positive spin.  Because smiling for the camera can help raise people’s spirits out of the gutter.  Would much rather give something real for people to smile about.  Has to be painful for the doctors to see all their losses on a giant scoreboard.  I like knowing what’s going on and a jaded work force is less productive.

The problem with unknowns.  People can estimate how a situation will work out.  There are likely many more possible outcomes than just the ones we think of at the time.  What we think other people are thinking and what actually is going on leaves a lot open.  I think it went this way and they think it went that way.  Two people jaded in their own ways and with their own agendas.  

Even if we want the best for other’s we might not have had the same life experiences they had.  So our ability to solve or add value might not be there.  Think the best and roll the dice. No guarantees the deck isn’t stacked.  Add in investigators or people with their own agendas, people start to think the system is rigged against them.  They stop wanting to roll the dice.  Harder to believe in God when it seems like everything isn’t working out. The more we know sometimes the more difficult to trust others. I can forgive and some paths I don’t want to walk down.

I will say one thing, whatever all I have been experiencing doesn’t make me feel loved.  I pray and things still don’t work out. Puts a bit of a damper on things. Actresses probably keep smiling regardless. Raises my spirits, something to be thankful for. So maybe I just need to smile more. Not honest but if enough people smile maybe we will all make each other feel better. Then the smiles are honest. Maybe the problem is I associate smiles with people being happy. Though if I don’t it makes me want to smile less. If I don’t smile I could give other’s the satisfaction of seeing me unhappy. I don’t want to encourage that. Though if people think I am happy they might not want to help. So I will smile and try to be happy. I pray that God will not make it a fraud.

I am speaking up, not sure how much good it is doing.  People that don’t see positive change might scale up the problem.  If corporations and Hollywood doesn’t balance things better how can we expect our citizens to?  I want peace and some simple solutions could help solve a lot of woes.  The images on FoxNews.com do look a bit better than they did a few months ago.  So props on that.  Seeing all this stuff at different times can make it more difficult to see where the problems are actually occurring, so my apologies if I comment on something that is already fixed.

I am not advocating putting a black tarp over everything.  No proper channels can cause people to act out.  If this kind of stuff continues I might just turn off watching the news until it is fixed.  Professional News requires a higher level of attention to detail.  I like the people, the content seems to be scaling out of control and will ruin the positive voices.  This could make fighting oppression impossible.  We need trustworthy voices in charge.  I do appreciate some clever jokes.  What I am seeing now makes me want to dial it back a bit.  I know we all contribute to the problems at times and we all need to watch out for each other too.

I realize people have a tendency to over compensate in the opposite direction. Not advocating that.  Not trying to make all the women look like Grandma’s.

I am trying to read The Bible and I am seeing some in appropriate ads on Biblegateway.com. Fox News.com needs to fix that as well, but they are not a religious service.  Strippers welcome at Church.  Stripper pole on top of the alter not cool.  No balance equals problems.  Maybe we would have more conservatives if Fox News was more considerate.  I like beautiful women.  Forcing people to view some of that imagery when just trying to read the news not cool.  Victoria Secrets in the mall cool.  Victoria Secrets with no walls next to the children’s section not cool. 

No subtlety lacks class in my opinion.  Stephanie told me she was over 20 so if I messed that up I am sorry. I liked her.  Match matched me with Michelle and she told me about her job in real estate.  Maybe she was too young.  When people are encouraged to lie it really makes things more difficult.  I wish getting a date wasn’t like pulling teeth.

The death penalty and lack of mercy might get younger women to do crazy things to get someone in trouble out of jeopardy.  Another damn good reason to not be unmerciful.  I want a woman that wants me, not a string to break the chains off others.  I want the chains off others regardless.  I understand the motivation can’t we all find a way to be more merciful to all?

This isn’t about blaming anyone. I just want this content to be friendlier for all. Fixing a problem doesn’t mean leaving CEOs out on the street. Protect everyone top to bottom and bottom to top. And please for mercies sake stop making the middle man’s life a living hell.

I love the people in the world and our country.  I am not a historian.  I can only comment from the way history has been defined for me.

Our country constantly has to balance between helping the world and protecting our people.  If we look at The United States as a mission and as democracy to look to and depend upon we have to make certain compromises.

I don’t want war.  I want everyone to be protected.  I don’t want oppression.

President Reagan made citizens out of many illegal immigrants.  He saw that there were already people in the country, maybe they didn’t get here the right way but mercy meant more than being right.  This is beautiful.  The problem is that others that wish to harm our nation know that a super power you can’t attack militarily can only be destroyed from the inside out.  Hardworking Christian people and people from other nations who want to love and protect others are people I would be glad to have in my country.  Our system seems to be not able to truly take care of the people we currently have.  I don’t want people moving here to end up dying on the side of the road.

President Bush had probably originally planned on being more like President Reagan.  He got blindsided by September 11 and over compensated by overextending our country in to more wars.  When our country gets hit like that people want to return fire.  It ended up costing us way more lives than we originally lost.  President Obama saw this and wanted to take the country in a different direction.  He is a great wordsmith and the liberal media wanted to crack down on the voices that got us overextended and brought us into war.  Maybe they view this as a necessary oppression to keep us out of future wars.

President Obama pushed for Healthcare for all.  The motivation is a good one yet if our system can’t support it and we let “the flood gates” open we end up with a system like Hurricane Katrina instead of a system where everyone gets support.  My guess is The Vatican would house everyone if they could, but they cannot so they have to depend on the rest of the world to help.  President Trump seems to be a bit of another over compensation due to people wanting to maintain their free speech and a system closer to the wealth and lives of their fathers.  Parents want to see their children have a better life than they had.  When they see it go in the opposite direction they get defensive.  

Both immigrants and the people already here have a lot in common.  Real oppression exists in some places in the world. Including the United States.  If the system can’t be protected, we stop being able to help anyone.  Oppression is a slippery slope and if we don’t fight it we could lose our ability to have free speech in the future.  

God has produced a system that requires us to both use our brains and where faith can move mountains.  Trying to reconcile those two things is tough and I haven’t quite mastered it.  I both pray and I try to use logic.  Logic to make decisions on what I do understand and faith, love, and mercy for all I don’t.  I want life to be better for all people.  

A better life could be misused as well.  If we all looked out for each other and the world was perfect this would be easier.  If we all agreed on what looking out for each other meant this would be easier as well.  Killing people and locking people in cages for long times isn’t cool in my opinion.  People might lock up those they think might retaliate or they might lock up those they just don’t want to pay or forgive. If someone is an actual threat it is one thing.  If people are labeling and throwing them under the bus because of jealousy or greed it is an entirely different thing.

Some might be left without healthcare to protect society.  A cage of its own.  These health problems can have dramatic side effects.  Who wants a giant CEO salary if it means someone in society gets run over because the healthcare wasn’t there.  I don’t.  At the same time I would like to be able to support and protect my family.  I like to see movies and travel.  I love art and music.  I love meeting new people and I like and value the long term relationships.  Definitely a hard balancing act.  Please forgive me for what I don’t get right.

  I am trying and I could work harder.  I have lots of interests and it makes me feel like I am going in all different directions.  There are better and more talented artists than me.  I still love art and music.  There are better engineers and coders than me.  I still think technology is amazing.  There are better builders and architects than me.  System design still interests me.  

I think it is wise to have some knowledge of different things in case some giant death machine starts being built.  People that know this could use it as a way to discredit me.  Some might make it look like something is going on as a test.  I want to speak up to protect our drinking water and our environment.  I also don’t want people or CEOs spending time in jail for things they miss.  We all miss some pitches and I don’t want anyone being thrown out of the game.  Our system feels way too unforgiving right now.  Why I believe in Christ and God without it we all are lost.  If I get discredited early on I might not be there to stop the bigger problem later.  Knowing which battles to fight not always easy.  Don’t swing at every pitch.  Tests at a certain point can be a way to distract and detour.   Some people might think the only way to make sure they will hit home runs is to continuously pitch and test.  One player not designed to stay at bat the entire length of the game.  Figuratively speaking, I am not speaking on The Great Game.

A long way of saying I want more support and less tests.  Doesn’t mean I want less teachers in my life.

Where was the community support of those two? Teenagers on anti depressant drugs have a higher chance for suicidal thoughts from what I remember.  If we had some cyber police they could have caught that maybe.  Hard to watch everyone’s communications all the time.  Some people think mercy means something else. One of the problems with mercy killings.  A bunch of streets leading to a crash.  With everything I have seen going on in the country.  Can’t really know how much is on her.  Wouldn’t want to label her for life.  Would be interesting to know more.

They are all beautiful and I don’t want them or him to get hurt.  Specially on my account.  If that’s her father I am sorry for thinking the worst.  Probably hard for those in the Middle East.  Not ideal to be taught lessons over time.  As time periods evolve it might be easy to miss the small details. Third party problems don’t only apply to China, though those great at technology like the Nerds usually get the blame.  Sports players have super computers too.  On the plus side they are still alive

Put it all on Christ because it beats carrying it around

If Christ forgave us we can forgive them

Even if they broke us we don’t need to break them

Faith – when I believe better in others and don’t worry I feel encouraged.  Trying to believe the best in people and understanding the truth of the matter is hard. Patience Guns and Roses

Futurama – the good, it shows some real life problems, and lifestyles

The bad – with the wrong health problems sexual jokes get annoying

Some people with health problems miss somethings.  Seems obvious but it is more complicated.  Perception of life can be completely different for different people.

If you don’t have certain health problems it is not always easy to judge what someone is going through.  Without that information the right words and the right predictions are tough.

The good and bad – other shows can be used in combination to change meanings.  Hollywood can work together in multiple projects over time.  Conveying complex information for better or worse.  Add in drugs and alcohol and people can be more susceptible.  The show you saw 5 years ago can be used as a way to convey a point or can be used as a tool of manipulation.  We have records of the shows people watch.  

People think hey I am just watching TV, no big deal.  Sometimes turning off the electronics is better.  People that are offline can spring up online.  People that are offline can be seen as out of the control mechanisms.  People can paint a picture over industries to illustrate a point.  Some people can miss part or all of this. Multiple super computers in the world competing to make their model happen.  Industries could fight other industries.  Media and art might be more obvious than restaurants and bars.  Composition matters and not everyone is aware of that.  Something right for one company might be wrong for another company in a completely different industry.  

Financial models could take this into account.  Better for us doesn’t always mean better for them.  Things have got progressively more difficult the past 10 years.  That makes me worry.  Don’t have enough contacts to know if it is more widespread and not localized to me.  Seems like we are headed for trouble.  Though I don’t know where from.  Seems like a snowball that is out of my control.  

I feel like the right words or the right prayer could change everything quickly for the better.  I mean that in a good way, better days for all people.  If people think better of what I am writing this would build faith.  Hearing the version that people think better of and hearing the versions people could think worse of at the same time is really hard.  When I type I feel this and it makes it tougher.  Wanting people to think the best and knowing some versions but maybe not all versions of how they could misread the information.  Add on comedy shows that misrepresented to get more ratings makes it even tougher.  A word could be a curse word in a different language I don’t know.  It could appear in sexualized shapes I do know but since I don’t know the word in that language it could appear problematic without knowing.  An unforgiving world and comedy doesn’t always make things easier.  

Yet laughing can make a lot of people feel better about some inconvenient truths.  Better though if you or others are not the butt of people’s jokes.  Can be hurtful to be misrepresented when you are trying to help.  Can make some people stop wanting to help.  Sometimes it is easier to be viewed as the tyrant than someone to be pitied.  Might be more obvious to some people on the sidelines who have children what is going on with those that are leftover.  They are acting like children, why can’t they just talk to each other.  Some wise kids probably think the same about seeing their parents split up.  Using the same word over and over gets a bit ridiculous and annoying.  I want my prayers answered, why can’t things just getter better right now.  Unanswered prayers long enough starts making faith feel like a string and a carrot, rather than something to trust.  Is God more powerful than the group blocking? Yes

If faith was more forgiving, loving, and merciful I would feel better about it playing more of a role in government.  People are imperfect and sadly good times and lack of persecution don’t always make people more merciful to each other.  A positive one day could be a problem the next.  God in charge and God’s people in charge are two completely different things.  True righteousness and humility must be a sight to see.

To have merciful cops we need a merciful community.  Good jobs and people protecting all people in the community goes a long way to help make officers jobs easier to do effectively.  When people hear mercy they might think the wrong thing, I mean life.  More people stable not less helps a ton.  Police and the citizens of the community are a blessing to this world.  

People that feel appreciated want to go to work each day. The people protecting our streets deserve better than this. A bunch of underpaid overworked tyrants or people there to protect us.  Both political parties have value to add and both need to learn to be more forgiving.  If Congress can’t work together, how can we respect authority properly?  If we are all loaded up with chips and health problems how can we communicate effectively?  Most officers don’t have time for that.  Pretty heartbreaking to see.  

When you’ve been on the street, the cops you meet after the many things that got you there aren’t to blame.  It is easy to see how people don’t want to deal with one more part of a system that has let them down.  We all need to reflect on how we can approach our interactions and interests with love and kindness.  In a storm we can both shake our hands at the sky or we can work together.  I care about our cops and we have some serious oppression in the system which shuts down communication.  Who wants to get routed into that.  I have been protected by people of all types.  Why not find a way to have more mercy for us all.