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Love your enemy.  We enlisted Jason and they enlisted us too.  No virtual boxes for the warriors ever? Real for them or real for us.  All AI bad? No risk, no reward.  Christ forgave us, wrote our name in his Book of Life, we can’t pray to God to write their name in there too?  Saving humanity? No reward in that? A war without a choice? No beauty in that? A war with a choice? No beauty in that? We chose wrong and they still saved us? No beauty in that? Love the unlovable? Now who could do that? Believe it or not, believes now too? “Hoorah!” Believe it or not my friends, those giant tigers were once small little kittens. No need for a Circus? No need for a star? Nobody to love us no matter who we are?

No built in safety? No childish rage? Who knew this man could survive in a cage?

No ring for the women and yet he proposes? How dare he do that with someone else’s roses? No ring for the woman no ring for a star? Be careful, be careful, whoever you are? Judgement for all is how it was written? Mercy and love for all that were smitten.

A Ninja a fighter is how he would have it? Mercy and silence no matter the rabbit? For a time my curious friend, one day he will be with us again. This my friend is too much to bare, who will be with him in his times of despair? Old prayers forgotten long ago, remembered by God, the angels in heaven, and the people we know.

Works as a servant. Works as a top. He moves the middle with what he’s got.

No beauty in ashes? No pain in disguise? Easy to get over these guys? Who will be there for her in her time of trouble? Magic and trinkets is all that he’s got to show for a lot.

Turn up the volume and let out the people!

No loyalty? No favor?  Off with his head? He wanted the best and we gave him a child instead.  What better gift than a child to inspire?  The biggest child of all, this we require?  Love him or leave him he’s all that we got.  He wanted a hug and we gave him a shot?  No risk? No reward? No room for misbehavior? No, miss mayor? Now, why would they say there is no miss mayor?  No prize for the fighter? He chirps and he burps and expects us to sing.  Bless them and keep them all misfits anew because one day my friends I will look out for you too. A lesson from this man we require. A teacher for many with faith to inspire.  Faith requires believing the best in people and not counting God out of the picture. Much more difficult in times of trials.  No muscles to show no string for the kitten.  How does he expect anyone to be smitten?  Faith for the many and faith for the few, making sure one day it won’t be you. No beauty in this, my friends to inspire?

I pray and I pray.  I give and I give.  I look up and down and magnify and extend.

A chance to be loved, a chance to be seen. A tyrant for all where Love is the king.

Love for many, more places and things. We fly through the arrows every day and each night. Yet he kicks us for what, we don’t say in the night.

Pretty little thing we see on the site. It tears us apart each day and each night.  How do we save the small and the big?  From tyrants above who spin and they spin.

Faith for the many and faith for the few? Support for the outcasts, misguided, and mews.  Because the Man up above sees all that we know. He loves us regardless to put on a good show.

He taught me and guided me, misguided we know.  Better than silence, applause, and a show?  He thought far ahead for what we didn’t see.  He planned more pageantry for the show and the king. A circus for all we lost to the war.  They painted my walls with lights and the scene. I gave them silence, those prayers and some of my things? Wait he lives each day and each passing hour.  Living past death? A new superpower.

We pinch him and strike him to jump through the hoop.  Yet he sits there instead just trying to look cute.  Forgiveness for many or forgiveness for the few. How would He have it, just us two? No little man that’s too much to ask.  Your part of a puzzle that we need for the show.  Fight it and fight it, it’s harder we know. No cage for a lion, a mouse, or a tiger?  Turn on the lights and bring forth the hour? “No my friend, this I can’t stand.”  For with each passing day and each passing hour, we turn up the volume.  More for the man and more for the show, a bad little man but she wanted to know?  A little mouse can’t try and be king? What will he say? My salutations to the queen.

Roses or Gems this I must choose?  Friend or a friend.  This I can’t do.  Ungrateful servant you waited an hour, then took our servant up to the tower?

Get her out

Answers he wants and answers he shall have.  You could get married but it will do that to her.  They are lying. What people lie?  Do you have the faith to move forward at all cost? Answers without pain? Pain upfront or pain long term? I could give those to you but what if it were your friend? Would you want them?  What if you knowing stopped you from opening the door that leads to better days for us all? Not feel pain when someone you know is hurting?  You know but you can’t change that.  Mourned up front. So no spending time wallowing when others need your help.  But it was her.  Happiness too? Short term fulfillment our long term? Both, you think you can walk that tight rope? 

Mourn when she wanted me to be happy?  Mourn when others depend on my every move? Being sad leaves us at our best? He smirked a little when he said that, I don’t trust him. Fair? Someone has to pay, let it be me? Let it bemine? Not account for the love of a mother or child? A wife or a husband? Your faith is strong but can they take it? Will seeing it, will knowing that, make yours stronger? It was an accident.  It was time. Do you have enough faith? Do you trust them even though they hurt you? They lied before but they told the truth. People change? People change. You died but they fed you to them. We loaded you up with drugs first. Who wants chicken? Don’t feed them that? Don’t feed them that.  They wouldn’t of wanted it that way. Their life as a curse instead of a blessing? No room for different?  Your faith was strong but was theirs? How do we change that going forward?

She was trying to teach you a long term lesson. A little overcast today beats overextending in the future. I moved that. Moved that from where? Puzzle pieces. Some today some tomorrow. Faith to move past that? Takes a lot of faith, he can do it. He can? I would like to see that. Would he? Will he? I better think ahead? Take away their plan for good? He wants short term happiness too? He sure is sad. Easier to have faith when the sun is out. Answers in your time frame and on your scale? No story? I hear a heartbeat. The loss of one life? What could it mean? Saving one life can mean saving many more. Takes a lot of faith. Don’t hurt that.

He didn’t call you in the first place? And you refused to talk to him? God gives us gifts without obstacles? So you want to be a fighter?  What does it mean to fight? To overcome obstacles. They didn’t give me that advice. That’s part of the fight. Faith without a fight? Answers without a cost? A glutton for punishment I see. No doubt he’ll be a star, but what about me? I didn’t see that. God gave you a gift now lift them. With what resources? That’s part of the fight too? Being a heavy weight, “I keep wanting to get out and they drag me back in.” Dude’s been sleeping for a year, what’s wrong with him? He’s in Xavier’s chamber. Don’t leave him in there too long? Don’t leave them in there too long. “Can’t stop the signal Mel.” We plan God laughs. Lancaster? “Things get better or worse but they rarely stay the same”. Consistency and stability for those that can handle it? Loss of a supply line, I wouldn’t want to see that. Lets help him. I want to help.

Give this to them before they go to jail. Still want to leave them in the pen? “No sir.” That’s what I would say

Fast fix. Fix fast. Faith required when things are fixed fast? Who likes fast fixes? Only Children? Pay check today and no paycheck tomorrow? Don’t worry? Don’t buy? Don’t b your ys? Less story without a fight. We all don’t like to watch movies? Watching movies all day can teach us. We don’t want to forget about our own story though. God is the greatest story teller of them all. Think the best in what other’s say takes faith. Specially when they stop feeling like they are on your side. I am not God. I aspire to be more Christ like. Training people to fight is costly. Look out for those that help get you there. Love your enemy. No room for interpretation? Someone prays to be a fighter. Training a fighter always feels like love? A fighter that fights for the good of humanity? Not Beautiful? Love doesn’t demand it’s own way. Always? Don’t jump off that cliff! No room for cliff jumpers and climbers? Choices. If we don’t like something pray about it. If we don’t like something talk to them about it. Silence doesn’t lead people down wrong paths too? No need for a fight? No need to fight permanent labels? All contracts good? All contracts bad? They were just following orders. You mean they listened? Thank God for that. I don’t like what they are saying. Better fight for that.

Dungeons and Dragons, movies, and live role play? Can teach people the wrong ideas. Can also let people make the mistake in the virtual environment. You mean they played that too? They were one step ahead of us all the time? All things wise for all people? Probably not. Can they handle it? Fun in a game or movie but if you see it all day long? Cops and Healthcare. So now no art? No inspiration? We stopped the problem. No more work. Happier? We threw out the good songs too. No more dancing. No way to meet people. No more Circus? No more Pomp and Circumstance? USA still USA?

What would Christ say about being a fighter? A hard road. A beautiful road. A road he walked. How long will it take us to have faith? There is more to this world than meets the eye. No need to save the lost? Leave that sheep be? Should we listen to him? Is he teaching us? He went against the system. Wisdom for freedom a buy product of oppression. What would Christ do? Fight for them. What would Christ do? Forgive them. What would Christ do? Love them. What should we do? Pray for them too. What would Christ do teach them. What would Christ do heal them. What would Christ do? Inspire them. What would Christ do? Give them hope during the dark days. Would Christ jade them? Depends on the end result. Push-ups aren’t easy. They need more training and it hurts to tell them that? Strong men can help move my couch. I’m just muscle to them? Keep them strong. Can teaching go too far. Yes. Easy to always know the line? No. Teach them to be a teacher? A hard road. Takes a fighter. Getting artwork to the right people at the right times, easy? Takes a fighter. Being a jack of multiple trades easy? See others prospering more than you, easy? Takes a fighter. surveilling misfits like me, easy? Takes a fighter. Cyber security, getting this information out to the right people, easy? Takes a fighter. Make everything perfect for everyone? Could make us weak. No support for getting something right? Leave others with nothing to correct? Who will train the cops? They put us on a wild goose chase. No fun in that? Life where people get hurt less I could get onboard with that.

Teaching the grand children. Because they might put us in the matrix one day. Saving the environment? Babies don’t need clean air and fresh water? They were fighting the narrative? Don’t give them that?

Cyborgs better with a merciful and loving leader. Don’t teach them that? Don’t give them that? People with cell phones aren’t cyborgs? Beautiful women crying isn’t a form of control? Take away their freewill? No. Augment their reality? Support. Who owns the system? Do the benefits outweigh the bad? Is the good always easy to see without teaching people the bad? Would they have mercy on those fighting the system, because they didn’t know the truth? We got this new phone that will keep you all in touch with one another. Once there is a war, how will that be used?

Always on the network? We need him. Network always on our side? No. Some decisions worth fighting? Yes. You all ask for that? Take it up with God. He didn’t know about that and blame him for it? If he saying that he must know? No hocus pocus? The actresses always understand the script? Mercy, leave their life like shit because they didn’t know? No. Easy to die for something? No. Easy to live for something? No. Easy to fight for someone? No. They must pay the price too? Negative sailor moon. I keep hearing no all the time and it is less more inspiring. Weird. Fighter’s don’t need support to? Support can’t make people stronger? Bad support can’t cause problems? He was ten shots in and we gave him the eleventh? They didn’t know? They didn’t know, they were young, they lacked wisdom. No need to let this out? Everything has to be like climbing Mount Everest? No need for a whistleblower? Want to be the defense lawyer at your own trial in heaven? We left them in there too long. No correction for that? People make mistakes. But who made them? You really want to go down that road? Having to see that is a justice of its own. Wait it was a body double? Camera tricks in Hollywood? Now you got me? Tempt me to over judge? No room for pranks? Wait they thought they were really dead? And no one there to support them? Maybe they thought you would bring the axe down on them. Mercy and forgiveness.

Jade a smart woman? A glutton for punishment I see. Wise to date a smart woman at a young age? If things don’t work out you could be part of her plan. A plan for good or a plan for evil? I choose to believe the best in her. Hope she is still protected. Hard to have faith. Many years later, did I take on more than I bargained for?

Systemic levels leave no room for mercy? Children that have more struggles in one area of life? God is not a snake. Xavier’s chamber left open for children to see? They were going to die and you didn’t show them the neat gadgets? Some things it is wiser for children not to see. We had to punish them? They knew better? We left them on the street and then? I refuse to be tempted past mercy. Mercy for mercies sake. Love and forgiveness even for the unmerciful.

A surveillance system and firewall isn’t an Xavier’s chamber of its own? We gave them The Book and told them to read it. But we’re you involved in their life? How do we expect people with all of life’s struggles to account for everyone else? Would they have been as great of a fighter if we stood beside them? Maybe a better one. We sometimes experiment when we don’t seem to have the right words. I want to fix this and I don’t know how. No mercy for that? That one is a little down on his luck. No longer a child of God? If God’s child walks away, then returns, do we bar the door? He wanted to be a fighter. Not an excuse? Fighters don’t need dinner too? He tempted us past judgement? Not an excuse? God wanted to write a reconciliation story? There’s still time for that. No need for forgiveness? No need for mercy? Young people don’t always understand how to be merciful to one another. People don’t always agree on how to teach each other. Let’s not call each other fools. Mercy for me without mercy for them? What love is there in that?

I must get justice of my own? Negative. God might fight my battles for me. Maybe I can help fight some of His. If I took the swing it would have been more merciful? Count God out of the equation? No way

Don’t give this to the guy in the ER?

Queen’s Authority

They were testing the Queen’s Authority.  Just because they asked for it doesn’t mean you should give it to them.  People like attention from authority figures.  If they don’t get it the right way they might try and get it the wrong way.  What about authority figures that don’t know they have authority.  Truth to power can make people bite off more than they can chew. He spoke up and got sent to darker places. Who doesn’t need a flashlight? The battery was running a bit low.  Hero in.  Saved my ass.

Cops, CEOS, Priests, Pastors, Presidents, Father’s and Mother’s

Justice can sometimes be less painful than Mercy. You did wrong and now let’s make it right. Or she knows and she just won’t say. Sometimes people know things for the wrong reasons so they choose not to take justice. Justice shouldn’t be just ice.

I think God can use Lucid dreams.  He made everything so He can use them for his good.

I heard one. I didn’t hear God say Jason only one.  Really haven’t heard God call me by name.  Those that give a child a cup of water will in no way lose their reward in heaven. Yet I am not called by name. I choose to have faith that I will not lose my reward in heaven.  Not saved by the laws, saved by the sacrifice Christ made.  The sacrifice already paid in full.  Divorce a concession to hard hearted men.  Make them stay together when they are miserable?

We like the love and mercy part.  But love your enemies?  But I am scared to go talk to them.  No mercy and love for those that are scared?  Maybe they aren’t ready to talk to you yet.  Think leaving them in silence will make them better Christians? No friction always better? Years of silence beats a quick fight between brothers? We labeled them a cheater for life because they hurt us? No mercy and love for those that made a mistake? Sounds like cheating forgiveness and mercy.  We had to test them when they just needed support?

Make them sad and they will run back to them?  Not the wisest approach.  Sometimes people turn on the gas, world circumstances change, then they forget to remove the label.  A solution that tries to contort others will to our own.  Word of advice? Don’t do backbends in the shower.  Nobody wants to clean that up.  Getting into position with walls you can’t get out of.  Speaking literally here, I literally did that. I could have died. I escaped but not easily. Creative solutions not always the optimal ones.  Surveillance can create insecurities. So a reason to be merciful to all.

Why humiliate myself by saying it? So you don’t have to.

Their partying while we’re at war? Glad to hear. You guys are back? Thank God

I am wondering if lies of love and protection register different from self interested or other agendas. Is Politifact good? Sometimes.  Is corruption in politics good? Wouldn’t think so. Can mercy be misread as corruption?

No mercy for Assange or Snowden?  Because we all have our act down perfect?  Death penalties, labels for lifetime. No I don’t want to prescribe to that. Don’t take a list meant to help people and use it to destroy people’s lives.

Encouragement, encouragement, encouragement, speaks the truth, makes us uncomfortable and goes against the narrative, no more encouragement? No room for John McCain? Spoke against corruption and torture, someone I would like to have on my team. Fighting war and fighting for peace.  Do I make the decisions? No. In a democracy does my voice matter? Yes. Can I see the problems on both sides and still want mercy? Yes.  For both sides. Yes.  People could label me as a relic from the past. Am I a police officer no.  Should I and all citizens speak up when we see oppression? Yes, though when and how.  I want less oppression and I want people protected. Can’t control what people think or their actions. Wisdom can help us know if we are adding value.  Do I want to be required to be an activist? No.  Do I want voices of those in pain to go unheard? No. Would I like to win some too? Yes

I keep trying to make positive change and it seems like nothing changes.

When I was under the influence I formulated the wrong ideas.  Didn’t mean for people to get hurt.  As far as I know outside of me, people didn’t.  Surveillance, everywhere, all the time, good?  People don’t say the wrong things under duress?

Getting tired of everything in my life being poison pilled.

He’s got a good friend. Use their name against him.

A beautiful day? He sounds like my dad.

Art? You know what he is doing with that.

Sinatra? Great musician, but

Want to use a new product? Not so fast, read this 1000 page contract

Sick of all this. Let me enjoy the time I have left on this earth.

I liked a woman. She didn’t respond. I liked another woman after time passed and still had unanswered questions.  Did I want to fall for more than one? No. Did I? Yes. Will wasting my time add more support for any of us? No.

Two loyal women to help fend off attacks like this? Sounding pretty damn good right now. The mess that brings with American cultural norms? Let them have it but don’t let them enjoy it. Can I make room for different yes. Can everyone make room for different types? Love the people you disagree with.

Do I want to make someone else jealous when I spend time with someone I care about? No. Is it nice having some free time when people go to work? Yes. Do I want people to feel like I care about them less because of that? No.

Don’t look back. Don’t you ever look back. If you look back we are through. What if they are on the side of the road? Her or me.  If you talk to her you prove you never loved me. If you talk to her I will talk to him. He talked to her guess I can do what I want. Knowing both sides.  Feels not so pretty. He was there for her during the dark days.  She might not be here if it wasn’t for him.  I could lose her but I have to trust her.  She’ll probably hate me if I try and stop her. Eliminate possibility of problems, eliminates relationships. Lock them in the tower.  They’ll love you for it?  Fine go to the bar, drink all you want. You’ll probably end up cheating on me. They did it before they’ll do it again.  Labels, judgement, and freedom.  Fleeting opportunities.  What is said and what is left unsaid.  But if they just told me.  If they did, would you love them for it?  Prisons without direct sunlight better? Why does our state allow that?

Two beautiful flowers. Give sunshine to one and crush the hopes and dreams of the other? Decide? All things possible with God’s help. You must proceed. People at the front door and people at the back door.  We can’t use the helipad? Budget cuts.  I like my cards, but I want the other’s at the table to win. Maybe I’ll get another great hand in the future. But it’s your turn to shine.  God will make it up to me. Not sure when or how.

My candle going out does not stand for war with any nation or person.  It signifies war against those demons preventing reconciliation and forgiveness.  I will turn it back on once there are answers.  I don’t know who, what, or why. Time for some problems to be fixed.

People change over time.  People also don’t always have the right words or experiences in life to match up correctly.  We make mistakes and we don’t have the knowledge or proper level of mercy to deal cordially with each other.  When we are young our experiences are vastly different and I and probably some others might have been less prone to being merciful.  When we don’t have real conversation there is no way to truly know what happened.  Things just don’t work out and we don’t know why.  

People don’t tell the truth to people they don’t think will be merciful to them.  Whether that is true or not isn’t always known.  We judge others to be unable to properly handle the truth.  Some relationships probably didn’t work out because I hadn’t experienced enough to be less judgmental.  They didn’t have the right words to convince me otherwise.  And they judged that I was unable to handle the truth.  Others with their own self interests might have the right words and choose not to because of their own problems and their own agendas.  

People labeling each other based upon where they were earlier in life doesn’t take into account that they have the ability to make positive changes.  When we see things continuously not working out we think others might have labeled us when they did not. Leave anyone in silence long enough and they start formulating their own ideas on what happened and why it happened.  The sad truth is judgmental people need more support and not less.  The sad truth is those that lie and steal and cheat need more support and not less.  Yes, it can be bad for us. Is it better to lose them in the long run?  Yeah their currently a tyrant, but their our tyrant.  Help me with the right words.

Figuring this all out sideways is lame. Figuring out that many don’t have our best interests at heart is lame too.

Finally some people are just different.  God made us all different.  I wish we could all work together for the better of all.  I wish we all agreed on how best to make that happen.  I wish some choices didn’t require compromises.  Compromises that leave anyone in society in silence and misery not really treating them like they wish to be treated.  Figure it out without support is annoying.  Being setup to fail is lame.  The Bible says a lot.  A man that prays for support while feeling like they are getting no direct support really doesn’t lead him to want him to read more.  Oppression can prevent people from speaking up.  If we talk to them they will think this about us.  Then we’ll be left out in the cold.

Likely some stuff might have been going on I didn’t know about before.  I also might not have had the mercy and love to handle what they told me properly.  Others might not have had the right words to say to me.  Was I easy to be talked to, no.  Did I believe more was going on than what I saw on the surface? No. Could they have spoken up and let me know, without problems added to their life? Possibly. Is better for them better for me? Not always.  Is there no consequences to silence and not speaking up? Sadly no.  Speaking up isn’t always about what is best for us. Sometimes it is about saving them.  Saving their heartache, their problems, years of misery.  Do we always make the right choices? No.  No room for forgiveness and correction that doesn’t involve a jail cell? Doesn’t seem very wise to me.

Deal with it.  Silence or support depending on how you read it. I mean this to be support.  Not I make this mean, so they support more.  Less support can make people meaner.  So now expect them to support more?  Not always about what is best for us.

Justice feels good when we get it at least initially.  Hurts when it is done to us improperly. It is addictive though, easy to overstep our bounds.  Can’t stop at just the people that wronged us so much, now we have to go for those that lied to us when they were just protecting themselves.  Others can lead us down the wrong paths.  We can over step our bounds.  Now justice can be done to us.  Doesn’t feel too good. I must return fire not knowing all the facts? Screw that. I must return fire on those lead down the wrong path by a society that failed them? Screw that.  There are times where defusing situations require less than optional solutions.  Better to work together to reduce those.

Got it in for anyone? No. Get all right all the time? No. We don’t need mercy too? No? Labels past statute of limitations? Screw that.  People that stop trusting their support need less people to talk to? Screw that.  Unmerciful people left to their own devices?  Screw that.

Sitting on an iceberg watching the titanic float by. They will get what they deserve? How about everyone else? Silence their voice and then expect them to speak up when it matters to us? Shh, nobody wants to hear that.  Decisions can diverge our paths, but it should not silence them.  Labeled for silence.  Because we wanted the system to fail. Wait that’s not what we want? Better speak up.  Didn’t have the healthcare I needed? Didn’t speak up? You mean you did? They were understaffed and overworked too? Everyone else just watched? We can’t figure out a solution that doesn’t leave them in silence? It’s our way or the highway? Not oppression of its own? Only silence it is the only way.  They know what they did, figure it out. Silence it is the only way.  Silence it is the only way. Why is nobody speaking to me?

Mercy and forgiveness. Because silence is a cold wind on a dark night.  But they said they didn’t want to speak to me.  People can’t change? No room for error? They will talk to me if they want to. If they can? Because oppressive forces aren’t stopping him?  Because oppressive forces aren’t stopping her? Can’t say I will have the right words.  Have a little faith. Every time I try to speak up things just get worse.  

The Devil likes to divide and conquer.  Scale up both sides and reduce forgiveness.  More than two sides to an argument possible? Not only possible, many times probable. Factors matter. Individual decisions can be wrong, and the combination gives a good reason to be merciful. They said it, they might not have said it the way I wanted, but thank God they did.  They fixed it, maybe jerry rigged with some duct tape but it saved us all.  It ain’t always pretty but thank God its there. Better not always perfect.  They bought us some time, now let’s find a way to make it right. I want to help but I don’t know how.  They did it wrong.  I did it right the first time?  

Encourage their good traits.  Support for life. Play up their bad traits, makes it worse for us all.  Yes what we don’t say matters too.  Better to be thankful for what we do say. It’s a compliment though not what I was looking for.  The worst kind of red head, the one that goes for the non red heads. No room for different?  Would you want to date that guy in the mirror? No, but they aren’t me. Maybe more muscles.  A giant without restraints? Could they handle being a giant? Not without support. Yes they could handle it but I want her, so let’s stop that. They aren’t perfect yet, they can’t handle it. Who is? Who can without support? Patch it up it will buy us some time. But don’t forget about it. The world is complex and ever changing. I forgot about that. I forgot to fix that too long. Nobody filled the void? They might have, but we labeled them. Dammit we meant it for good and they used it for bad. We tried to tell you. I wasn’t getting tons of fast balls at the same time? I wasn’t a chemical piñata at the time? We didn’t protect the guys there trying to solve the problems and fix our health? Hard to make ends meet when labeled. Less than optimal solutions collide.

Permanent silence not an optimal solution.