Listened To

I do not feel like this World sufficiently listens to me or has provided adequate support. I would like to push back, just not sure how to push back.

Anyone stacked with enough problems and enough reduced support becomes a liability and is unwise to turn up. People do the best they can with what they got. And what they got always set to ideally sufficient seems unwise. What they got set to not sufficient seems unwise as well (potential for upsold to can’t fix anything, can’t make anything better). People can handle a little so they have the potential for being stacked with more at tough times. Society might try to turn up problems and reduce support at the same time in order to create critical problems that lead to liabilities, failures, and loss of property.

There is good reason to divest from help when not equipped, when the environment is not suitable to actually create value. Might sound unreasonable for CEOs or Business Leaders to divest completely, not want to touch a project yet God does not always seem to provide sufficient protection for those CEOs and Business Leaders. People want to help, a situation that does not have sufficient conditions for environment and support, for clear and open communication is vital to success. Throughput is limited and directional with the potential for combinational wins for many if it is allowed to be.

Rewarding Experience for all matters and for some reason seems to being turned down in the reality I live in. Might not be the same for all realities. Problem Solvers jaded with less desire via excessive liabilities can hold back real gains for society. Problem Solvers undersupported are more likely to lead to products that don’t deliver, that don’t have adequate feedback or support. I feel as though I have insufficient support. I am making due with the support I have does not equal this makes me really want to fight a battle (like running a Missionary or Hospital) with insufficient support. Imperative for Society to remind each other of the good qualities, and it is easy to jump to the wrong conclusions based upon communication, contrast, and truth that amps far less than sufficiently for all.

The jade I have been stacked with is more than I would want stacked on anyone. Feels like God doesn’t truly hear me. The problems I have been stacked with are jading my life experience in a way that potentially makes my value creation less likely long term and that is heart breaking. If God doesn’t actually change my situation and make things better it would be unwise to ask much if anything of me going forward. There is value in not dating me.

I believe God can provide more. I also believe my reality is insufficient, jading, like having all your doors fall sideways on the hinges at the same time. Feeling of cursed comes to mind. Hard to believe I can actually create value when I feel like I am in a jade reflection engine. I will make due the best I can with the reality I have, does not equal I think that reality is currently or as even close to always amped sufficiently.

My reality seems to be more based on Faith that doesn’t deliver many times than physics laws that are dependable. Ghost moving doors, technology like power saws being hacked or possessed seems more likely than I can guarantee than if I throw a ball up it will fall down. Hard to fully appreciate there is the possibility of realities that could be controlled as a perception engine, like Plato’s Allegory of the Cave, The Matrix, Vanilla Sky, Marvel Xavier’s Cerebrus, Light Houses (from a movie I can’t remember the name of right now). It is more than a little difficult to depend on a reality that does not feel dependable.

If you haven’t experienced it, hard to fully comprehend. My reality amped in a reliable way then has shown itself to be unreliable more than once. I can make sense of all that? Not really. I like all of that? Not really. I dislike all of it? Not really.

People are required to be amped on the same reality? People are required to stay in the same realities with same rules? No as far as I can tell. A reality that is trying to paint a narrative has zero potential for wanting to limit opposition, divergent thought processes? No. Like Mr. Anderson on the Matrix.

Is this the same reality I was born in? Maybe. Supercomputers with tons of graphics cards and quantum computers could likely amp a reality that is identical, imperceivable differences to the reality I was in previously? Likely. There is zero potential for my reality having network connections to other realities? No. Some countries could exist just on supercomputers that have real people that amp real messages based on experiences they all have had in a virtual island or country? Yes.

I believe Supercomputers and Knowledge of Brain Science is high enough to make a person distinguishable from artifical intelligence indistinguishable? Yes. I talk to a person like they are a human does not equal they are guaranteed to be a human. That is concerning. People could have avatars that could be put on auto pilot in the future? Yes. One Avatar could be controlled by multiple people of the same sex or different sexes? Likely. Reality might amp in similar ways with Humans, or Humans Augmented by Tech (Cyborgs)? Likely.

My reality and environment has potential for amplifying in ways others do not. Other’s reality has the potential for their environment amplifying in a way mine does not. There is potential for liabilities created in all that. Wouldn’t happen in my reality but would in another’s is a possible system. Would happen in my reality but wouldn’t in another’s is a possible system. Value Creation is subject to laws of Physics that are subject to change in non ideal ways makes investment in endeavors potentially less value. I can rely on that then I can’t rely on that has been amped in my life makes it hard to say with any level of certainty I can sufficiently add value.

Life as controlled by the Devil at times seems possible is hard to fully appreciate. Like if you practiced a musical instrument and depending on the way God felt or allowed the Devil to interact could lead to that musical instrument playing the wrong notes on purpose. Like reality is installing reminders just because you think you can create value, doesn’t mean God or the Devil has to allow you to create value. Like if God and the Devil are taking bets on what you will do next. What they allow on the table and what they agree not to allow on the table.

Life is more like running an independable jading guantled than working on dependable structure that can be built upon. Reliable factors into trust, and this reality doesn’t amp reliable means this reality doesn’t amp trust. Preparation is a sometimes useful system. Learning and Wisdom amped delivers less than sufficiently. I could prepare for all curve balls equals God and the Devil see preparation potentially equaling a different curve ball is thrown.

Hardwork is a sometimes useful system that is not always rewarded. I feel like God could listen to me better. I don’t like what He is painting with my life. I don’t really want to be blamed for the sins of Adam and Eve. I would like a better reality. I would like to be viewed and live a life that is more than God’s Imperfect Guinea Pig. Human’s are not perfect, I feel like that is an excuse to limit training and limit support, treat unfairly, limit real justice.

Invest in God or the Devil can fuck with you gives feeling of demands own way. I don’t want God out of the picture, I want a Church that claims to care for widows and does not out of the picture. I shouldn’t have to have negated support to provide support for those that have had limited support like those in Jail. Every Criminal Defense Lawyer’s life as a negated support oppression reminder gives feeling of terrible deal for investment. Give Doctors all the health problems of patients to remind the World of the need for Doctors? Something needs to change.

God, Authority, and Leaders that insist on getting to claim ground on right, correct, how it should be does not give feeling of real love. My reality is and has been painting something and test I don’t like. I don’t want to be dead, I want something better. Experience that makes me feel like garbage unvalued really gives feeling of bad deal. Like making people laugh don’t like always being the joke.

Do what God wants or all flat tires. Kind of lame.

I feel free? No

Maybe freedom never amps sufficiently. If I get in a spaceship and travel to another planet, still dependent on systems that can fail, mission control that would control me, desire to control me. Potentially more free feeling camping, yet lack of resources and health problems are not freeing. If I had money would people let me enjoy it, would I be able to escape the golden shackles of items to truly feel free? Maybe not, still does not equal I like having zero access to resources.

More does not always equal equipped or sufficiently enabled to handle more. Less does not always equal equipped or sufficiently enabled to handle less. Both have potential for not entirely a feeling of free. More to juggle enables invesment ideally? No. Less to juggle enables value creation ideally? No. There is potential in products does not equal with many products I could fully capitalize on that value, no guarantee they won’t be greater value added than zero extra products. Less to juggle can be powerful, having more options can also be powerful. Thinking of technology, one computer or multiple tablets, computers, phones, and cameras. Enabled to multitask via extra access is powerful, though potential for rarely used. Extra potential on tap is nice, can be invested in to excess. Potential for even investing in extra to just be one more reminder of oppressions reach. Knowledge of the reach of oppression, visibility is nice to have and not guaranteed. If you don’t use a product can’t always see that it is amping in incorrect ways. Preparation is a sometimes useful system. Redundancy is a sometimes useful system.

Pencil and Paper has the potential for being more powerful than many supercomputers. Supercomputers have the potential for being more powerful than Pencil and Paper. Both are valuable tools, potentially with more ideal characteristics at particular times (harder to hack a pencil and paper). I will have sufficient capacity to understand when Pencil and Paper is more valuable than reliance upon computing systems? Got to give that to God.

I feel like my investments in work have been sufficiently protected? Not really.

Life gives feeling of amps TestA will be precusor for TestB. Amps TestB will be precusor for TestC. And so on. Life Experience as all tests feels less sufficient. Fighting a battle long game I know I can’t win (time eventually runs out the clock on us all) changes the perception of what winning is. Short Term gains are valuable, Long Term is hazy vague at best. Short Terms gains are wise to appreciate like the smaller things in life. Appreciated in Balance to not lead to hubris seems wise as well. Value added is less than ideal, that said value added beats no value added. Being the guage of what that is while undertrained and underprepared is tough. Others could likely do much better in my circumstances, by preparation, choice, fate, and luck. Surface area and visibility is less than 100%, liquidity is less than 100%, resources available are far less than 100%. Getting too legalistic might detract from wins, from value added for visibility and surface area that would not be there otherwise. Either got to be 110% or nothing is what is amped in Engineering at times. A resilent product that is well tested and has ample feedback is the requirement and thus the norm. Different circumstances and situations call for investments that are different. A soccer player or football player might be better adapted to my current situation. Adaption is possible, not easy, not without difficulties.

I do not have full visibility of all value I have created I do not have full visibility of all value I have limited. The combination has tendency to amp more wonder about the value I have limited than the value I have created. Desire to make it right has potential to amp less than sufficiently in a World that has its own agenda at times. Gains and Losses less than fully comprehendible should ideally be both Encouragement and a reminder to respect just because I don’t always see what I do wrong does not equal I have not made life harder for any without trying to. The effect is possibly more sobering than encouraging. I wish I would have drank less over my lifetime. Potentially my circumstances would be different. I feel as though people ideally encourage less drinking, have the right words to change path to a more positive one? No. People get busy, talking about the possibilities and potential in life, envolving others in a way that leads to positive paths require investment in time, thought, and reflection that not all have as life gets busier and progresses. Single people are not always given ample positive opportunities for socializing specially as life progresses and many of their friends get married. God ideally would protect single people more not less, though I really don’t want families being protected less either.