System is amplifying Misery and I want it to stop.
Redundant resource losses and inability to make real progress in life gives feeling of very bad deal.
Hard to Trust, have Faith, God will make it Right.
I desire to believe in Heaven. Hard to Trust that a God will provide Heaven that won’t answer prayers for Rain, that won’t stop my resources from being Redundantly Robbed Time and Time again.
Stress over years adds up. Trying to invest in Engineering and a Better World leads to Miserable robbed over and over. Blocked from real gains. Gives feeling of rigged unfair system. I can Trust God with that, the same God that hasn’t delivered solidified gains over time gives feeling of questionable unlikely at best.
I need a Real God that answers Real Prayers and doesn’t leave me sidelined over life.
Continuous Silence compounded with Health Problems gives feeling of bad deal, hard to Trust.
God has a plan for life, to make it good, to prosper is what I would want, that is not the feeling God’s plan has given up to here.
I can Trust God with that has failed to deliver. I can Trust the Church with that has failed to deliver. I can Trust the System with that has failed to deliver. Friends and Family can’t do it all.
To top it off I am surrounded with silence and inadequate support then held responsible for my words in non ideal ways.
The combination does not resonate love. It resonates legalism and inadequate support.
Never Say Die Encouragement Delivered equals Never Say Die Encouragement received? Does not give feeling of true value added.
Doing right set to leads to good results would likely be true in a nicer World. This World is darker than I would like to believe. Desire to make better of a system that is fundamentally flawed seems to keep turning up less than ideal results.
Easy to think Love, Grace, Mercy, and Encouragement is the default setting. It is not the default setting and has high potential for being reminded in non ideal ways at non ideal times. Feels bad to leave the future with the bar set so low.
Hard work, concern for others, desire to make things better should amplify value, seems to be cast down in this world.
Negate real conversations and hits sideways to resources is insufficient amplification of the future.
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