10 you min owe it?

Adult Topics, reminder Without sin cast the first stone – Christ

There is homosexuality in our country. Not everyone is Christian, not every Christian agrees upon how wrong it is. In by design equates to has to be accounted for, mercy for Homosexuality as in by design is not always ideal mercy for others.

Medical and Art, there is some of that there as far as I can tell. Add in drugs including halucinagens that might be taken by choice or not by choice, some medications have side effects, not all people get choices on what drugs they take, not all drugs are all profit free – explotation might not always take normal routes.

Homosexuality might be tied to incest which is not all pretty, and movies and hollywood has tendency to use interesting. I like interesting and I don’t want to reinforce either homsexuality or incest in society – at the same time I don’t want victims of our system to be thrown on the street or devalued because of collective sins we all invest in.

Lingerie shops and Strip clubs that profit society are in by design. Limiting freedom is problematic, especially in a society you expect to be free. Freedom should lead to freedom and not explotation is a difficult topic to fully deal with.

The prison and jail system does not show all real imagery to the public. Partially bad is not showing naked bodies on cold solitary cells being fed drugs they don’t really have ideal choice to refuse and hot dogs.

Who is in power, the ideals they attest to, whether homosexuality is consider a problem or not a problem factors into how our system is run, who may be exploited, who is seen as useful. I do not think right or left has effectively solved the problem, thus a problem that is in by design seems to be in USA to stay. Saying any tax dollars, driving on the streets doesn’t contribute to the collective sins seems unwise.

What is sin is not agreed upon creates problems. Homosexuality no big deal might lead to fornication as no big deal, babies that aren’t fully cared for and protected. One sin no big deal might lead to less truth other sins seen as no big deal.

All that said the idea Christ is in by design and that frees us from the law, then people get reattached to the law and people decide which sins to forgive and not forgive, sin leads to death, but we are free from the law and sin is a bit mind boggling. Put in combination with James 4:17 knowing and not doing is sin and be perfect makes things feel difficult when it seems no matter what you do, you are partially turning up collective sins.

Can’t A the min could lead to feeling of no big deal to sin against them, not ideally perfect so thrown under the bus is no big deal which is not good.

Requirement to protect the problem might accelerate the problem. The topic feels a bit like quicksand. Our system gives out Bibles while not addressing the problem gives feeling of a bit doublesided. The system moves forward regardless of sins is common, facilitates Global Warming, and a system that might not protect sons and daughters ideally.

Without sin cast the first stone is an important teaching of Christ, and since society invests in collective sins, even forgiven I don’t think it is fair for us to be throwing stones.

That said not seeing the problem usually does not factor into the problem being fixed. The problem might become more of a problem in hard economic times. Mercy claimed then left to die on the streets is not really mercy. Victims of a system we don’t ideal is not all pretty. Claim forgiveness and love, sufficient support not really doesn’t seem an ideal way to roll.

Thought about calling this document A you min owe it?, numbers to describe people not always pretty, people use scales 1-5, 1-10 if in by design, better add in support for mercy and grace for it

But it is an F? Not an A?

Defense Law Thoughts, September 30th, 2024

Reminder I am not a lawyer

  1. Flight simulators and jets in video games are legal
  2. Military technology is more than the outer shell
  3. News and corporations that profit some parties over others are allowed to show footage of military equipment.
  4. Interesting and unique factors into interest in Aerospace
  5. Less is not always more

WorksInProgressBlender/4_2_Jet.blend at main · jasonldavis-tech/WorksInProgressBlender · GitHub

There are other jets on Blender Market, if the world goes into tougher times having extra thoughts around the matter might be useful, if the government needs to turn off access at any point it likely will

Thoughts September 29th, 2024

Adult Content and topics, please use caution reading.

Listened to United Nations speech on education. I want all citizens of the world to be protected, I also feel like the United Nations has diminished the significance of the losses of the Israeli people.

I don’t have access to the older United Nations speeches. Makes me want to look at and hear the ones in 2002 after 9/11/2001. What is different in the words and what is similar? A thousand+ people killed has shown precedent for starting wars. The World reinforce ideas and systems that don’t lead to attacks that allow 1000+ people killed in terrorist attacks? I am not sure exactly what needs to change, diminishing Israel and other countries right to protect themselves from significant threats I don’t think is the right option.

Will France get rid of all of its nuclear technology, and weapons? If not…. why not?

I did not create the following video, I find it useful for discussion

Police officers could turn over their guns, have them all melted in a furnace today.

That would be unlikely to lead to a society with no guns. There are unintended consequences to preventing defense.

God also says Love your enemy, those who live by the sword die by it.

Matthew 26:52 – Bible Gateway

One could argue that Christ’s words are only in context to that particular event in history. For those that believe, one could argue Christ’s Crucifixion is the largest event in history outside of the end of days, the creation of the World.

What does Love your enemy mean exactly in a day with nuclear weapons? Ideally a world would turn up situations that don’t lead to anyone ever tempted to use weapons from nuclear weapons to police officer’s guns.

I feel a bit double sided on nuclear weapons, I want to be protected, and I don’t want anyone nuked.

Again, I did not create the following video, I find it useful for discussion

“If you insist on saving your own life you will lose it, and if you lose it for my sake shall find it” in combination with desire for others to be protected? Jewish and Christian people in Nazi Germany might have lived by that motto.

Matthew 16:25 – Bible Gateway

Isaiah 41:10-14 Do not be afraid—I am with you! I am your God—let nothing terrify you! I will make you strong and help you; I will protect you and save you. “Those who are angry with you will know the shame of defea | Good News Translation (GNT) | Download The Bible App Now

As Love your enemy and Golden Rule is in New Testament, reminders we have all fallen short of Glory of God and forgiveness is paramount finding creative solutions to form peace in advance seems wise.

Mark 12:30-31 NIV – Love the Lord your God with all your – Bible Gateway

I don’t think love your neighbor means allow Nazis to cart them off in trains, whoever they are.

I will say no gun when there are not significant threats around you is valuable. Less sword in the mix might save you, might lead to peace. This world has drugs that are hard to fully comprehend, and people aren’t always in control of their actions – less weapons around is valuable hard to fully appreciate if you haven’t seen everything I have. That said if I was on the battlefield, I would want those around me, my allies fully equipped and protected as that factors into capacity to protect those around them.

If I would make a suggestion, doesn’t have to be followed. Make peace and forgive those who wronged you on this day, don’t put it off, because bridges built today factor into support tomorrow. If I had lived by this better in the past I would likely have more support on this day – others have potential to learn from my mistakes, see better days. Collective sins of society kind of equate to we are all constantly wronging each other anyways, you might have turned up global warming and I turned up global warming, to what are we going to do about it?

Don’t judge and science is a bit hard to ideal in combination – if we don’t determine we are over the line as society, as a World, will we really do anything to solve it?

Growing up in the 1980s I am grateful no body made me wear a shirt that said Global Warming Supporter, doesn’t have to be supported. At the same time we as adults need to look at the issue if we want to have any chance solving it over the long term.

Found this speech by former President George Bush

Hard to blame Israel for wanting to fight back Suicide and Other Bombing Attacks in Israel Since the Declaration of Principles (Sept 1993) (embassies.gov.il)

Figure I could learn something more from the following video

Some thoughts listening – Big Brother and if-ed cybersecurity has caused real problems in my life that I feel like have been a contributing factor of anxiety and feeling of oppression in war torn times. Understand the need for Patriot Act at the time, feels like it has potentially been used as an oppression and control engine as well – thus I support parts of her message. Her message talks about how we are close to WW3, Nuclear Weapons and trying to promote peace thus worth turning up.

Being from Texas, messed with sideways with cybersecurity problems has potential to give feeling is NSA and FBI still watching, or are cartels, gangs, mafia potentially watching the network at times. I have invested time and effort into Computer Engineering degrees, messed with on that level, my work including this blog make me question if no network connection is not more valuable at times – though could still be built in network bugs I can’t see. Disconnected really hurts my life work, connected to a wreck support engine really hurts my life work as well.

Listened to following video

Thoughts after listening to the video – Ethnic cleansing and humanitarian problems in Armenia by Azerbaijan sounds awful, I do not want to discount all the United Nations voices because I do not think they are sufficiently supporting Israel’s right to defend themselves. Makes listening difficult, I don’t want Israel’s right defend themselves limited and there are other problems in the world that feels unfair to completely not address.

—- following is not to do with the particular video above

I can understand why Israel might not want to reinforce power in an organization that doesn’t give adequate recognition, lose 1000+ people just out at festivals then have parts of the world accuse you of genocide for trying to protect self while you are surrounded by enemies and it continues to reinforce the same patterns of diminished significance

Propaganda rows F A for Jewish and Israeli people is scary, good reason not to believe everything one hears at times, knowing who to believe when people say a Jewish state is causing humanitarian problems – I rely on our government that has more access to data, I don’t get all good data and have cybersecurity problems, the reports I hear of humanitarian problems are concerning, in line with potential supporters of terrorism like Iran, surrounded by enemies – while all these facts are not adequately factored into discussions makes trusting the discussion harder from where I am standing.

Thoughts September 28th, 2024

I support Israel’s right to protect itself.

I support the United Nations path to a safer future including renewable energy, more equitable accessibility, and mitigating risks of artificial intelligence.

Having degrees in Engineering and being from a military family (while not being in the military myself) I am reminded of the fact that the world didn’t always have machine guns, until it did, didn’t always have gas chambers, until it did, didn’t always have planes that can drop bombs on little girls, until it did.

The future progresses forward to new ground, new technology – and that technology is used in care flights and also bombs dropped by both allies and enemies. There was war before 1900s, there was war after 1945, there was war after Vietnam, there has been war after Iraq and Afghanistan.

The World has a tendency towards war. The Bible says blessed are the peacemakers. Peace leads to blessings, likely to also lead to improvements in technology, improvements that as history has shown precedent for will be used by both good and evil.

Improvements in technology will equate to power. Power seen will likely lead to desire to protect. Only one country used to have a nuclear bomb. A future where we all don’t die of radiation sickness and cancer sounds both ideal and not what this world drives toward.

Having nuclear weapons really a blessing or a curse to future generations of countries? I don’t want to spend years in purgatory after I am dead accounting for all the sins of less-than-ideal leverage caused by power, access to power, less than ideal distribution of power including financial power. The Bible says Be Perfect and James 4:17 Knowing and not doing is sin. Haven’t felt like Christ has given me ideal clarity on the matter.

Does South Africa’s leaders care about the hostages taken in Israel, the brutality they are still potentially facing? Does South Africa’s leaders care about a nation’s sovereign right to protect itself from terrorists and threats? If gangs take hold of your city, just chalk it up to a loss, pave over it, set those that try to fight it to genocidal? Doesn’t seem like the right course of action. Israel has a right to protect itself, and history has proven it has need to.

Hamas and Hezbollah, Iran attacking Israel sends a message to the world that is not good.

Russia attacking Ukraine sends a message to the world that is not good.

Small problems don’t always stay small problems.

A clear message to the World – I want peace, prosperity for all and F fucking with our allies is A.

—– Continued

Imagine going to pick up your children from school and from a building there are 3 men with RPGs firing rockets into your children’s playground.

Now imagine you are surrounded by enemies that constantly do this, and you have the chance to call in an air strike or not call in an air strike. Protecting Children requires hard calls, stressed calls, fast calls. Hezbollah and Hamas are no light threat.

If you call an airstrike, and if you cared about your children being protected you likely would – the next day you would probably hear about how there was an orphanage of starving children in the building. This might or might not be true, the enemy would like to destroy your PR ability to protect yourself. The enemy firing at children would likely see no problem with launching their attacks from places where children are at risk.

Could Hezbollah or Hamas have chemical weapons, distributed by Iran? More possible than desirable in this day and age, not defending self, allowing terrorists to control your country, leave your country constantly ravaged by war is an unacceptable path to give to anyone, let alone people that experienced genocide in the past.

Less weapons accessible and available and Less hate speech toward Israeli citizens allowed in advance, reinforced by the World, World leaders would likely lead to less likely to get to that point.

Israel set to monsters for trying to protect its citizens when surrounded by enemies this far after 1945? Status quo of let until they all get carted off in trains again? Unacceptable makes sense.

Creative Writing, September 26th, 2024

Thoughts on September 26th, 2024

Afterlife

You wake up after your dead, drunk, desiring another beer, on a porch in the country with a keg full of beer, your surrounded by your closest friends and your closest enemies. Truth is available, yet all not that desirable? Beauty in the storm, beauty in the dryness of the porch and the wind, the storm and the wind, beauty in a full keg, a chance to break through all the problems in life to better days. Love to A owe, with accessibility? Less to solve in this moment, more time to drink my beer.

Gives reason to solve things in valuable, grace filled ways in this life.

Support Amps, September 26th, 2024

Free Starter Support Amps, Rule of 3 Comedy Attempts, and Critical Thought Amps (caution: Randomly Generated)

Protection of Israelites, Protection of Ukrainians, Protection of Haitians, Protection of Sudanese

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Improved Architectural Blueprints, Protection of Ethiopians, Habitat for Humanity, Protection of Australians, Protection of the Persecuted, Reduced Miscommunication, Protection of People in Space, Protection from Chemical Threats, Improved International Relations, Improved Architectural Blueprints, Protection of the Persecuted, Electrical Safety, Protection of Danish, Protection of Veterans, Protection from Sexual Violence, Reduced Miscommunication, More Peace building, Protection of the Persecuted, Improved Magnify Studio, Protection from Sexual Violence, Protection of Christians, Protection of Malagasy people, Throughput, Protection from Sexual Violence, Nonviolent Resistance

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Protection of Japanese, Protection of Travelers Worldwide, Protection of Japanese, Improved Data Consistency, Protection of Swedish, Protection of the Oppressed, Protection of those unable to Protect Themselves, Protection of Christians, Protection of Cambodians, Electrical Safety, Protection of Bengalis, Critical Thinking, Protection of Taiwanese, Human Rights, Improved Microscopes, Water Desalination Plants, Improved Microscopes, Freedom of Speech, Focus, Improved Medical Tech, Protection of People in Antartic Research Facilities, Water Bottles, Improved Architectural Blueprints, Improved Hospitals, Improved Hospitals

More Peacekeeping, Protection of Pacific Islanders, Respect, Protection of Italians, Power Efficiency, Protection of Italians, Protection of Ukrainians, Freedom of the Press, Throughput, Nonviolent Resistance, Protection from Sexual Violence, Diversity Training, Electrical Safety, Protection of Sudanese, Protection of Italians, Protection of Australians, Encouragement, Protection of Nurses, Protection of Italians, Protection of Tibetian people, Protection of those unable to Protect Themselves, Protection of Allies, Protection of Haitians, Protection of Chileans, Protection of Chileans

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Protection of Christians, Less Burning Buildings, Protection of those that have been devalued and dehumanized by society, More Peacemaking, Protection of Irish, Protection of People in Space, Protection of those that have had their support robbed, Validation, Protection of Nurses, Water Well Drilling, Respect, Protection of Mexicans, Protection of Spanish, Protection of Agnostics, Protection of those that have been devalued and dehumanized by society, Protection of Haitians, Validation, Reduced Villain Level Contrast Training, Problem Solving, Protection of People in Antartic Research Facilities, Criminal Defense Law, Protection of Engineers, Nonviolent Resistance, More Peacemaking, Protection of Greek

Protection of those unable to Protect Themselves, Protection of Buddhists, Water Desalination Plants, Protection of People in Space, Protection of Spanish, Improved International Relations, More Peace building, Protection of Travelers Worldwide, Protection of those that have been silenced, Protection of the Disabled, Protection from Antisemitism, Improved Data Quality, Disaster Risk Reduction, Protection of Canadians, Protection of Allies, Diversity Training, Protection of Malagasy people, Critical Thinking, Protection of Diplomats, Teacher Training, Improved Learning, Water Well Drilling, Improved Optics, Improved Chemical Showers for Labs, Protection of those that have had their support robbed

Go pick up some important documents from work, Do the dishes, The prettiest flowers have the most leaves

Go pick up some important documents from work, Clean your room, Never Say Die!

Go pick up some important documents from work, Clean your room, The prettiest flowers have the most leaves

Do the dishes, Clean your room, The prettiest flowers have the most leaves

Always be safe in the lab, Clean your room, Hug a kitten

Do the dishes, Eat your vegetables, Never Say Die!

Do the dishes, Eat your vegetables, Never Say Die!

Always be safe in the lab, Eat your vegetables, The prettiest flowers have the most leaves

Do the dishes, Do the dishes, you hug the lovable dictator

Eat your vegetables, Do the dishes, Hug a kitten

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Less is not always More

Mark 8:35 Mark 8:35 TLB – If you insist on saving your life, you – Bible Gateway

I am working on a song. I want it to be the right kind of encouragement for the world.

I like blackholes, and warm fires. I do not like tempting African Americans in the wrong ways. Being successful is tempting. I am not a KKK member. I do want white people protected. I do not like that wearing a white shirt might set me to KKK, a green shirt might set me to flagging, sending a coded message (a go signal). I like the color orange, I do not want my song to be tied to either political party and it seems like if you don’t use blue at times, you are seen as a fire starter, not water.

I do not want to take away from significance of September 11th, 2001, or October 7th, 2023 – it feels like if the world keeps having events like these, making content will die a slow death.

I want to do right by people, hard in times like these, and as far as I can tell since 1983 the year I was born, hard times are in by design.

I feel like I could partially release the song – no guarantee I will see tomorrow, yet it is still a work in progress, want to iron out details. More details might lead to more refined, less able to be type casted as something bad. Abstract art is in by design equates to people have potential to represent things in ways the artist didn’t intend.

What is being done against my life does not lead to feeling of ideal leverage out. Ideal leverage out would be more ideal for work of any kind, including art – I don’t want to be a byproduct of the oppression. I am not sure society will ever be ideal oppression out.

I know people have had early access to my recordings, my work at times. While I like being protected on the world stage it feels like it has the potential to push me in particular directions, might not be ideally invested in my profit and success outside of my safety. People might be safe in jail, life is more than safety. I need a world, society that is more than watch and punish, people that don’t speak up, create conversation then wait for others to step over the line is not the future I would want for anyone.

Finding a super model and moving to a snow cabin sounds nice. Constantly in the middle of systemic oppression, a system that does not seem to ideally correct itself overtime is taxing. Move somewhere I can’t be hit sounds good, might not be ideal other people hit out. I have been put on the street enough times, had enough oppression against my life to say being hit is not good for me. I don’t really feel like God has been delivering on my prayers for peace and protection.

I don’t know who has been messing with me. I don’t feel like they are really invested in real dignity for my life. Reduce support, claim forgiveness, have wrongs perceived then fall into same trap. Looks like leads to apathy leads to looks like on repeat – to I question if God has my best interest at heart. And I don’t want them to owe it.

There is good case to be made for younger musicians can run further with it – haven’t ironed out all the details (might be too close to other songs). Owe let blessed.

When I say I want white people protected, I don’t mean I want other people not protected, less protected. Being able to say you want someone protected factors into capacity to protect. Arian race, might be set to a Nazi – not all pretty.

There are amazing people of all colors and creeds, just because I might not know how awesome they are does not equate to they aren’t providing critical support that factors into support today and in the future.

I believe in God, I don’t know how to A it. And with James 4:17 and Be Perfect kind of feels like always in sin, never really in.

I feel trapped in this city

Limited access to passport, repeatedly iffed finances. I want God to answer my prayers yet I do not feel like He always does.

I wish I hadn’t gone to the strip club, now my finances are more in question. Was nice to have company for a little while, been allot of silence in my life.

Not sure if my stomach will ever get better. Been praying for healing hasn’t seemed to be getting all better. Alcohol somes helps my brain relax, makes my stomach hurt less for a time then more for a time.

If God doesn’t help me fix my finances I will likely be put on the street. I am really tired of being tested, not seeing real up and progress in my life.

Parts of the city feel like there is no real outlet. Dead ends and limited sidewalks gives less feeling of free. It was nice to have a break from wars and iffed finances, have cats to take care of for a while. Life has a tendency towards progress when really some of the better days are with less.

Haven’t felt like real up, real potential for up in a while. Health problems on repeat, no real conversation on most days.

I try to row progress. I see injustice in society, criminal justice, in the way products are made, in global warming, in knowledge and access to knowledge – probably a body count larger than anyone wants on their shoulders. Try to make progress and things get heavier hurts.

I have no high ground to stand on, and feels like I need to claim high ground to survive. Life as a farce.

If I reinforce A, the same systems that are in place before – not all death out. If I don’t reinforce A, others problems, problems new, old, and different – not all death out. God that forgives sins with feelings of no way to truly min.

Men and Women choose A not all pretty, don’t choose A not all pretty. If that is A, comprehension of that is A, A is not all pretty.

A document that tries to raise comprehension, always more ideal? A not all A, not all Never Say Die, You will prevail!

But will things get better? “Without a doubt” is a better thought, the more true thought?

People don’t always paint truth, and we paint A with that? Sufficient knowledge to make decisions – I hope.

Could be a cool song, the misery it is wrapped in might equate to never heard

I liked the blender animation, I think another blender animation might bring more peace, letting orange being capitalized on as evil doesn’t feel all good

I could have used blue, I choose to use blue many times, afraid to make a fire to warm my family would be wrong (even if I don’t have a fire place)

Limited support, including limited brain power from self factors into delivery

Thoughts of Prisoners being released from prison, garbage fire of homeless, celestial blackhole I might be throne into, thoughts of stove fire left on too long, thoughts of mosh pits and dangers of mosh pits, Thoughts of warm beats dead hope we as society didn’t do too much damage to them

If this could lead to a million dollars or homeless off the street, homeless off the street is better. Damage over time – time as a blackhole, fire as damage – too obvious?

8 billion plus people, similar has been created before, free starter video

Understand the complexity of delivery? It’s a gift.

A white man squirming under the underpass – could be me. If I could give money to them I would, if I was them, I would be too prideful to ask for help in advance. Blessed are the peacemakers, make peace with that. Too F row A fee.