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I like to be protected.  I like to be kept healthy.  I like to have energy.  I like to feel inspired. I like to be entertained.  I like to be encouraged.  I like to feel loved.  I like to feel like part of the team.  I like to feel like I am adding value.  I like having real hope.  I like to have a roof over my head and food on my table.  I like having the right tools to do the job.  I like not being limited to one field or one position in life.  I like having friends.  I like having opportunities for love.  I like being forgiven when I have made a mistake.  I like knowing what I have missed.  I like winning sometimes.  I like a good joke and I don’t like to be made fun of.  I like to work with others.  I like living in peace with other nations.  I like having a system where I feel like I can tell the truth without winding up in front of a firing squad.  I like when people speak up if they think we are about to drive off a cliff.  I like reconciling quickly.

I don’t like to be a doormat.  I don’t like my health taken from me to prove a point.  I don’t like being manipulated.  I don’t like being strung along.  I like my tools not to be messed with.   I don’t like being controlled by bad contracts.  I don’t like being forced to agree with something.  I don’t like being left at my mom’s house with no job and bad health for some political end.  I don’t like being put out on the street.  I don’t like being blamed for my failures and not being given a hand up.  I don’t like losing all the time.  I like my hard work to matter.  I don’t want to be handed a victory I didn’t earn, I don’t want to lose on a technicality, and I don’t want every win in life require me to earn it.  The last sentence defies logic a bit but I think God in heaven knows what I am saying.  I don’t like people preventing me from working.  I don’t like my friends, brothers, and sisters dying on the battlefield.  I don’t want anyone nailed to crosses or tortured for that matter.  I don’t like being left for years to think about the mistakes I have made as a lesson.

Now treat others like that.  Simple huh? (sarcasm).  Difficult but not impossible.  Without the help of God and others, improbable.  None of this is possible without love and reconciliation.

When you are working out and lifting weights you never know if you might be sidelined soon.  For men like myself lifting weightlifting was a nice way to get out aggression.  It is probably wise to learn other techniques as well for removing aggression and blowing off steam.  

In my younger life I spoke very freely without realizing some of the pain it could cause.  As life went on I learned how hurtful some words could be and how unforgiving society can be.  This made me more silent.  Silence can lead to people not speaking up when it counts.  It had became clear that I was under heavy surveillance which led me to not trust anyone.  If people talk too freely without regard for the pain they can cause people can get hurt.  

Not everyone has each other’s best interest at heart so letting the wrong people know all you know is not wise.  On the flip side too much surveillance, people you don’t know if you can trust around you, and what seems like oppressive changes in the system make you not want to speak at all.  Silence can let good people suffer or people to be blamed for things they did not do.  

Alternating people between these kind of environments one where people don’t have to be afraid to speak and one where the wrong word gets you killed is likely to cause problems.  Some people have to interact in both these types of environments just to survive.

The idea that the law and the system doesn’t have evil in it is a mistake.  When we allow excessive surveillance we could solve a lot of problems if we could trust those with that information to not misuse it.  Part of the problem with Governments and technologies is that information can stick around and then be used to hurt parts of the population when the wrong leader gets in charge later in life.  We should probably have laws that delete records of surveillance after a short time.  What was popular 5 years ago might get people hurt today.  Surveillance can prevent monsters and if used irresponsibly can create them.

Back to the original idea here.  I was moved from having the ability to vent in speech, lifting weights, and talking with friends slowly to a place where I had the ability to do none.  Mechanisms that I had to channel aggression were removed from my life and I did not initially have other tools in my tool belt to blow off steam.  So learning more tools to combat aggression and vent steam is wise.  I have also had a ton more provocations to anger, so extra tools to vent can go from a nice to have to a necessity in certain environments.

Think magic tricks vs a thunderstorm. They both change things. A slight of hand can appear to change the laws of physics, they can produce light and sound. Thunderstorms produce light and sound yet the heavy distortion is more noticeable and instead of thinking about the individual components like rains and clouds we think about the storm as a whole. I am not sure the analogy perfectly applies but you can make up your mind on that after reading the paragraph below.

Slight distortion can be worse than heavy distortion.  With slight distortion the meaning can be changed yet the new meaning is still discernible.  With heavy distortion the individual slight warps can give way to the overall sound.  Though when different things have slight warps those individual changes can be perceived at once making things terrifying.  One car in front of you with a word play fuck you and street signs buildings, etc together in concert.  Do we have randomly generated license plate numbers or has cyber security problems led us to printing a giant set of fuck yous to the general population.  Now how do we unbrainwash an entire population that has been trained with double meanings and double entendres?  The odd thing is I didn’t pick up on any of this until later in life.  Timed correctly all this could do some real damage to people.  Creative word play with a friend might be a little fun, creative word play on mass scale can make people miserable or get people killed.  Completely ignoring it could be one solution but ignoring this all could hurt the more impressionable.  Drugs and alcohol can make people more susceptible to it as well. Seeing all this can make life a lot more difficult.  Not knowing about it can make people blame you for things you don’t understand.  All this together can drive people to other specific companies giving them a monopoly.  That monopoly could have a kill switch in their product.  So feels kind of like damned if you do damned if you don’t.  The Devil is in the details but so is God.  A bit difficult to see it though.  Maybe some of the names are trying to protect from an oppressive system.  Maybe we reduce the oppression in the system and the word play will get a bit nicer.

Mercilessness and oppression gets us into wars.  It is unwise to think mercilessness and oppression after we defeated an enemy will prevent future wars.  It would be sickening to see the heroes that got you out of the mess become the same demons that created the mess in the first place.  

Imagine being a third party walking into a mall after a war.  The new force is on guard.  Imagine walking in and seeing urinals in a bathroom moved to eye level.  The guards have set them up that way to teach people a lesson.  Doesn’t matter that someone could have syphilis.  Doesn’t matter that the guard on the winning team is in the bathroom and could get piss splashed in his face.  Doesn’t matter this third party is in the bathroom and now sees the guys they thought were heroes hurting people as well.  Walk outside and there are tons of the spoils of war at a flash sale.  Dangerous weapons that could get more people hurt.  Items built from plunders. All on sale, could be safe souvenirs for the occupying force or laced with radioactive material for anyone who dare buy the item.  Doesn’t matter if it is a child that think it is a pretty piece of art that doesn’t have full comprehension of what took place.

Poor leadership post war turns heroes into monsters.  Christianity teaches us that we should forgive and not think too highly of ourselves.  Without reconciliation and forgiveness we never break the cycles of endless wars and oppression.  Excessive punishment doesn’t teach lessons, it creates monsters.  All societies without love and mercy will eventually crumble and die.  The evils we commit to our enemies are likely to follow to our friends and loved ones as time moves forward if we don’t change paths.  People are imperfect, mercy and love should account for that.  Sometimes it is easier to be hurt by the guy you got in a fight with than by your friends or family.  

War is shit, women and children becoming distant and having to survive, while the man gets bullets fired at him and his friends bleeding out in the street.  Once a man returns from war does he want to keep fighting with his family?  Once a woman and children have their father back do they want to keep fighting to survive?  I can’t imagine that doesn’t cause a ton of friction.  All withered and beaten and then grouped up together as if nothing has changed.  People with less energy make more mistakes.  Glory and joy in what has been saved, have love and mercy for one another, not because it is easy but because that is the only hope for a better tomorrow.  I don’t understand why God tests us this far.  I suppose if we couldn’t handle something then we would be dead.  Frustrating that a master of the universe couldn’t make it easier than this.  The tough days can make the bright days more appreciated.  I am not saying I think this is how it should be, I am saying that’s how I think it is.

Thoughts on AI inspired by a lot of Science Fiction movies and cartoons

First AI is helpful, reduces mundane tasks

Then AI evolves much faster, eliminating all tasks required by humans

Humans become complacent even the knowledge that existed to create the AI

Technology eventually kills capitalism, no jobs, computer can do everything faster

Ideally AI should be used to sharpen us and expand our potential

AI might not use a light touch to solve problems

Technology should be used to better the human experience

If a person can speak a painting into existence

The time required to understand the implications of that painting might not be realized

Technology should be used to save lives

Climate change

Wrong solution destroy part of the population

Right solutions better fuel economy, technologies to prevent pollution of the environment, reduce the risk of nuclear winter, reduce the risk of microscopicmachines used as nuclear weapons, surveillance to prevent climate damage from being scaled on purpose, if the scientists are correct then things have to change now and we must insure the support for the people it creates hardships for is effectively addressed. We don’t lie and say it’s just a bump and not cancer and we don’t pull teeth without novocaine. Not saying I am a doctor, the example seems fitting. Maybe there is technology out there that can instantly fix the problem but corporate profits or evil legal regulations are preventing its use. Maybe there is a plan already in place that will solve the problem and the scientists are left to stress out so corporations can have a few more years squeezing pennies out of technologies. Could be other reasons as well and people might label them conspiracy theorists.

Ideas

The problem some ideas deemed hazardous.  Some people manufacturing the same ideas will label the others hazardous to beat them to market.  Take the people trying to do the right thing out of the system, evil wins.  Technology is only good if we keep the right people in charge of it.  The problem capitalism fuels greed.  Greed does not make for people choosing to do the right thing in power.  If greed controls technology we all lose.

Mercilessness

If death penalty is removed then the support network that protects people from it might disappear.  If all oppression is gone it might make a society apathetic to fight it.  I don’t agree with this mentality.  The death penalty teaches that we can kill each other to solve our problems.  I think it helps fuel the mercilessness in future generations.  Of course teaching men to be evil and merciless isn’t exactly necessary.  These people will likely exist regardless.  Problem is how do I tell the exceptions from the real evils?  Specially when medicine and external factors can and do generate evils that are not discernible from real evil.  Not sure about this one.  I feel teaching society to reconcile and show mercy to one another out weighs the need for the death penalty.  I also believe societies support networks need to be ever vigilant because sometimes evil sleeps for a while before striking.  Teaching people that not forgiving or reconciling is ok will teach people to be evil.  Mercilessness should not be rewarded.

The above paragraph was derived from a dream I had. First I was in my own giant theatre room. I looked around a several candles were lit but I did not light them. I walked upstairs because I wanted to find who lit them and I was outside a Cheesecake Factory. It was odd because nobody seemed to have masks on during the pandemic. I was wearing scrubs though I am not a doctor. It made me realize this Cheesecake Factory was in a hospital. This got me thinking about the implications of having a mall attached to a hospital. Nicer place for doctors to have lunch and more potential for spread of diseases during a pandemic. Helped me start think about how we think to solve problems and what problems are solved and what problems are created. Problem solving doesn’t eliminate all problems. Progress does not mean perfection. Striving to solve problems is great and don’t let it make you miserable because once that problem is solved there will likely be more. I read a fortune cookie earlier that said something along the lines of life is not meant to be figured out but a reality to be experienced. Realize perfection does not exist, strive towards goals, love others and be quick to forgive, and enjoy each day you have in good health because a future of good health is not guaranteed. That’s my two cents on it. I realize living that out is much harder in practice for imperfect perfectionists like myself.

If I am ever in power and say the word hopscotch, I am no longer in control of my own actions. Doesn’t mean take me out, just plan accordingly.

Understaffed support network.  Power and money into too few hands.  People working in their own self interest.  Those with that money and power controlling the laws and the system.  The rich get richer and the poor die on the streets.  Artificial reasons manufactured for leaving others without.  Silencing the voices in the room that call out this obvious flaw in the system.  Some want to change things for the better and different manners are used to silence them.  Those in charge are figure heads to allow the terrible status quo to continue.  This system is lame.  All fuel for a power vacuum.  Easily scaled to another system that is evil without the right balance.  

Move faster and more resistance.  Who wants to go from mansions and private planes to a 1 bedroom department without enough money to follow their dreams.  Don’t move fast enough and people keeping dying on the streets. Move too fast and tactics of the rich could prevent any positive change.  Move too slow guillotines and people like Stalin come into power.  A new ruler and a new system corrupted by power.  Trying to scale both sides to the better of all, preventing revolution and preventing the rich from protectionism that destroys lives is hard.  Even the people that believe this way without protection can easily be replaced with someone more extreme from one side or the other.  In the end people have to forgo jealousy and be happy to see each other happy and successful.  Being able to accept that some people have better hands than other is hard, harder when the difference is greater.

Take one for the team is one thing and being continuously asked to take one for the team is another. Don’t let anything get too bad for one person in society. The idea is simple, in practice in requires clarity and visibility of what is going on. We all miss things so more people trying to look out for each other is a good thing. All about levels, let the water rise too high and eventually people drown. Leave people treading too long with limited resources they lose energy and drown. No difficulty and when the rain comes they might not know how to swim. Society in its current state has people at all these levels. Look out for one another is such a simple idea yet in practice it is much more difficult.

Let’s be honest, people that care about me should tell me what’s up.  I can woddle my way into the truth or people can help me out.  A direct conversation can save years of heartache.  Not everyone has the right words to say to each other but it’s likely somewhere on the earth somebody does.  When we throw up walls between each other and sit in self righteous indignation souls are lost.  Silence can cost lives.  No organization should use silence as their entry mechanism.  People that throw up road blocks in my life are not helping.  Years of this shit on my life is enough.  Years of the pain you all have caused my family is enough.  If you have something to say to me say it, don’t push me around sideways because it can cost lives.  There are more than direct ways to say things and I understand that.  It does not cancel the need for direct conversation.  If you have a problem with me say it.

If you keep your child at home they might be protected but lives might be lost by the lives they could have influenced for the better.  If you let your child in the world they could save lives, take lives, or be taken.  Life is rolling the dice.  Given that fact and that everyone in it is rolling the dice, not instilling forgiveness, mercy, and reconciliation is a mistake.  I have been beaten, drugged, and terrorized.  Had my situations shifted without my consent.  I am still alive until God takes me.  Each day is a new day and everyone deserves more chances while they are breathing.  Forgiveness and reconciliation usually requires taking a hit on pride and protectionism.  Forgive someone they might come back to bite you later.  Don’t and someone else still might.  God is in control and petty squabbles might make us miss the axe above our head.  Forgive and reconcile quickly.  Tomorrow is not gaurunteed and festering anger can scale up problems for everyone.  The Bible teaches this, sometimes it is hard to related to words spoken years ago

Don’t confuse my ability to put up with shit as me liking it.  I do like attitude. Not shitty attitude.  Attitude that lets people speak up when they know something isn’t right, attitude that tells me where I am wrong, attitude that lets people not be afraid to show who they really are, attitude that protects the little guy when no one else will, attitude that refrains from saying what they could to protect someone.  Attitude that saves, attitude that fights for the better for all.  If we demonize people for the pitches they miss, they stop stepping up to the plate.  I like home runs.  I like goals.  I like touchdowns.  I like people working together to help solve each other’s problems.  Probably best to keep people in the loop so you don’t step on each other’s toes.  It is nice to make things a surprise sometimes that said well meaning people’s individual actions can be in the right place and the combination can have unintended side effects.

Younger generations don’t always have this wisdom. This world is tough and when you are fighting to survive gaining wisdom isn’t always the primary goal. It is imperative on people that have wisdom to share it with each other and for those that listen to help find a way to speak it to others in the community. Not out of judgement and condemnation, not from a high horse of moral superiority, but humility and love. I understand the want not to overburden and sometimes a light touch is not enough. If people don’t think you care about them wisdom is muted. If you are going to drink leave the keys at home. Excessive drinking wrecks relationships and causes people to say things and make decisions they wish they hadn’t. If you prevent a man from achieving his goals he might turn to the bottle. Don’t toy with on and off relationships, you are nobodies doormat. Don’t modulate each others support networks, misery lies down that path. Don’t put your faith in the wrong people, you might not know their situation – so don’t have your life be a product of their control. Call people on their shit. Thank God for unanswered prayers – though my heart kind of half believes that one. How do we claim to care about people when we are supposed to be cool with them leaving our lives. I am glad it didn’t work out, I am not sure we could have been friends, and I lost a friend. Something being good and dark at the same time. Fighting for ones country is beautiful and honorable and seeing your friends die or suffer life long injuries from a war isn’t pretty – or so I imagine not ever experiencing war myself. My war was trying to speak up when being made out to be crazy, and trying to survive the storm of being on the street. Having my status constantly shifted all while having some of the people I wanted by my side never give me the time of day. I try to imagine the best, covert operations that prevented people from having real conversations with me, and at the end of the day I am still alone. On the plus side, someone that never trusted me enough to tell me the truth could have never made me truly happy. Don’t make someone the tool of a ten year long investigation without speaking with them directly. One person disappearing hurts, people disappearing over and over really hurts. People on the sidelines matter too. The job isn’t done if their life is left in shambles. Can’t rewrite the past but we can try and repair it where we have failed.

If you are given two options that aren’t right and have enough time, find a side door. Planning in advance saves lives. We don’t always have enough time and if I failed I am sorry for that. Being beaten like a piñata made me untrusting and I waited a little too long.

I don’t need to be President. I hope some of the words I have been inspired to write have a positive effect. God, The Bible, tons of artwork (including various industries and sports), and my life experiences all contribute. Hopefully it is a light to someone out there.

Let me first say I think you are beautiful and I don’t have all the answers. I am far from perfect, and I am the product of a broken support network. I have been unfairly labeled as mentally ill for trying to tell the truth. I wanted to share my thoughts though they might be annoying.

My first thought would be bulimia. Doesn’t mean it is the right thought. People that are closer to the situation probably have better insight. How to actually help when people don’t want help is difficult. How to help when support networks can’t be trusted is difficult. Is it wiser in this case not to get involved? Possibly. Getting involved might be the right choice and at the same time have a potential for backlash. Hope she has a father that is looking out for her. The way she talks seems more interested in discrediting the comments than explaining her body type is different. This seems to be a cause for concern. Could also be lack of resources or addiction. Could be factors that I can’t comprehend.

Now if I posted this comment would I add value or subtract? Her words say keep the conversation open but her tone sounds like she doesn’t want discussion. “Remember my door is always open, please shut it on your way out.” – Better Off Ted

So maybe the first comment should be? Do you have a support network you can trust? If she doesn’t is she going to say she doesn’t? Probably not. If she thinks she could have one would she want one. I would think so, who doesn’t want people they can truly trust in their life? Some are burned and jaded so badly they might think they are past positive interactions. How do people add value to that? I don’t have the answer to that, maybe someone that has been through it would be better equipped to discuss. This mentality by the masses fuels apathy. Apathy by the masses reinforces the jade. Damned if you do damned if you don’t, possibly. Those that lack humility and would prefer to harbor resentment are more easily jaded. No reconciliation and no forgiveness equals no peace. Who really wants to tell someone that is already hurting and jaded this? Would someone that truly cares about her omit this? No.

This is like pulling out a tooth that is infected without novicane. Temporary pain could save a life. Though depending on the backlash could be incredibly hurtful. “Right or happy, take your pick“

This is not saying I have any of this right. Maybe you could help tell me where I am wrong. I am a man who is small and I use nicotine because people are preventing me from getting proper healthcare. Last I am a believer in God and do have doubts at times, the God I believe in loves you and wants you to be happy

Technology that signs an email as a personalized response.  Law against mass emails from using this.  One inbox that is for advertisements and one for personal correspondence.

Force emails to be labeled as

Personal

Emergency

Marketing

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Where we are headed is body cams for everyone.  Too much surveillance can be a tool for oppression.  Not sure the answer to it, maybe everyone should at least know they are being watched.  Doesn’t really make me want to try.  Makes sense.  Surveillance can wreck lives and create unfair advantage in business.

Not always about who is in charge, sometimes it is about who is further down the line.

There is a way to save people without making my life miserable.

Even in a society where everyone gets the same paychecks, God doesn’t give everyone the same gifts.  People that are limited wish to unlimited themselves.  If we don’t give proper avenues for progression in society people will likely try other avenues.  Not everyone in trouble feels they can speak up.  We know we have it better than some though mediocre is crippling in its own right.  An appreciation for things not being worse and a hope for something better than status quo.

A true friend would tell me this directly.  Food might be more important than a keyboard or guitar.  But that keyboard or guitar might help you feel less trapped.  Who doesn’t want a ticket out of oppression?  Who wants to leave their family in it?  If working in the proper channels leaves you in the thick of it is it not reasonable to expect people to resort to improper channels?  Can’t really follow your dreams without healthcare. I am not this countries pen and paper.  We don’t rob people’s healthcare because we don’t agree with them.  The evil exists for a reason, and evil people can take advantage of this.  Corruption corrupts.  Execuses for excusing a man.

When you are tested enough, you might chalk the real up to another test.  See the problem?  Less support equals more problems.  More tribes should mean more support and not more division.  The appearance of an agency that can support and actually can’t support creates more problems than it solves.  Defunding the police likely ends with the appearance of a support network that can help when in fact it cannot.  Oppression in policing creates the exact same problem.  So the answer is remove corruption and fund the police.  A merciless system is oppressive and therefore corrupt.  A problem shifts from being a problem for the few to a problem for the masses.  A big problem we face is those that control the tics control the system.  That is oppression.  When withholding support healthcare and otherwise is used as a weapon, we all suffer.

Public healthcare for all and a stroke of the pen to end companies that abuse it. 

Yeah if we left Venezuela like this, we have it coming.

Why are no candidates talking about how we can help China during a pandemic?  They save countless lives with all the money they lone us and when shit hits the fan we blame them. WTF?

Canada has too long of lines in public healthcare.  Maybe instead of throwing out the idea we use American Engineering and know how to help make it better.  They profit we profit we all profit.  There are problems like forced vaccinations and corruption in the system.  Do we destroy the system or make it better?  I like more time not less for everyone.  So fixing problems is a lot cheaper than wholesale repeal and replace.  I realize I am not DaVinci and with hubris any system can be turned for evil.  That said people can’t tell me the current state of affairs is better.  Crippled support system and crippled environment is its own death machine.

Is killing one man on death row worth the amount of corruption it adds to the system? I don’t think so. I realize some people might be a danger to society and we need to protect society. We don’t do that by killing unarmed men. Vengeance leads to more bloodshed.

New tech

Technology that signs an email as a personalized response.  Law against mass emails from using this.  One inbox that is for advertisements and one for personal correspondence.

Force emails to be labeled as

Personal

Emergency

Marketing

Adult content 

Where we are headed is body cams for everyone.  Too much surveillance can be a tool for oppression.  Not sure the answer to it, maybe everyone should at least know they are being watched.  Doesn’t really make me want to try.  Makes sense.  Surveillance can wreck lives and create unfair advantage in business.

Not always about who is in charge, sometimes it is about who is further down the line.

There is a way to save people without making my life miserable.

Even in a society where everyone gets the same paychecks, God doesn’t give everyone the same gifts.  People that are limited wish to unlimited themselves.  If we don’t give proper avenues for progression in society people will likely try other avenues.  Not everyone in trouble feels they can speak up.  We know we have it better than some 1 though mediocre is crippling in its own right.  An appreciation for things not being worse and a hope for something better than status quo.

A true friend would tell me this directly.  Food might be more important than a keyboard or guitar.  But that keyboard or guitar might help you feel less trapped.  Who doesn’t want a ticket out of oppression?  Who wants to leave their family in it?  If working in the proper channels leaves you in the thick of it is it not reasonable to expect people to resort to improper channels?  Can’t really follow your dreams without healthcare. I am not this countries pen and paper.  We don’t rob people’s healthcare because we don’t agree with them.  The evil exists for a reason, and evil people can take advantage of this.  Corruption corrupts.  Execuses for excusing a man.

When you are tested enough, you might chalk the real up to another test.  See the problem?  Less support equals more problems.  More tribes should mean more support and not more division.  The appearance of an agency that can support and actually can’t support creates more problems than it solves.  Defunding the police likely ends with the appearance of a support network that can help when in fact it cannot.  Oppression in policing creates the exact same problem.  So the answer is remove corruption and fund the police.  A merciless system is oppressive and therefore corrupt.  A problem shifts from being a problem for the few to a problem for the masses.  A big problem we face is those that control the tics control the system.  That is oppression.  When withholding support healthcare and otherwise is used as a weapon, we all suffer.