Unknowns

The problem with unknowns.  People can estimate how a situation will work out.  There are likely many more possible outcomes than just the ones we think of at the time.  What we think other people are thinking and what actually is going on leaves a lot open.  I think it went this way and they think it went that way.  Two people jaded in their own ways and with their own agendas.  

Even if we want the best for other’s we might not have had the same life experiences they had.  So our ability to solve or add value might not be there.  Think the best and roll the dice. No guarantees the deck isn’t stacked.  Add in investigators or people with their own agendas, people start to think the system is rigged against them.  They stop wanting to roll the dice.  Harder to believe in God when it seems like everything isn’t working out. The more we know sometimes the more difficult to trust others. I can forgive and some paths I don’t want to walk down.

I will say one thing, whatever all I have been experiencing doesn’t make me feel loved.  I pray and things still don’t work out. Puts a bit of a damper on things. Actresses probably keep smiling regardless. Raises my spirits, something to be thankful for. So maybe I just need to smile more. Not honest but if enough people smile maybe we will all make each other feel better. Then the smiles are honest. Maybe the problem is I associate smiles with people being happy. Though if I don’t it makes me want to smile less. If I don’t smile I could give other’s the satisfaction of seeing me unhappy. I don’t want to encourage that. Though if people think I am happy they might not want to help. So I will smile and try to be happy. I pray that God will not make it a fraud.